Man, I don't even keep up with this thing anymore.

Ed, how're you holding up? How's Al? I got your reply to the comment I left in your journal, but I've been lax on getting back to you. Sorry about that. You know I love you, though.

Anyways, I've started taking up training again. I found the gym again (I swear, it moved) and have been spending a lot of time in there, just working out. I'm out of shape badly. Seriously need to get back into shape. Get out the buster sword, practice with that. Hopefully I can still lift it.

Anyone want to do a mock battle? I've been itching for a fight of some sort, if only just to get myself back into practice.

I've been really tired lately. A bit apprehensive, too. The house hasn't pulled anything since Valentine's, so I'm half-way expecting something new to happen any time. After the attack and then the whole hearts thing, I don't know what to expect. Alright, so the attack was all Xemnas' fault, but still, the house let it happen.

Guess I probably should think on the positive side. Things are going well with Ed. 'Cept there's this new kid around that looks freakishly like little Al. No clue what's up there. =S

Oh, man, there are a bunch of new people waltzing around. Cute blonde girl in a white dress, couple of guys. Hm. Wonder if anyone's showed them around. And don't worry, Ed, none of them are my type and besides, I've settled down since I got here, there's no way I'd do anything that'd end up getting you mad at me or hurting you.

Anyways, I heard Lucia is cooking up a storm in the kitchen. Might pop in and sample what's she's got.

Ed's a Nobody. And it's all my fault! I shouldn't have let him run off alone! Damn it!

What am I going to do? I don't know how I can fix this!

What's AL going to say when he finds out?

Yule was pretty disappointing. I guess I was expecting more of a celebration; there just wasn’t enough umph in that pitiful excuse for a party we had here. Then again, I guess not everyone here is used to the same amount of partying I am. You should have seen some of the parties the SOLDIERs threw back home. Even the great General Sephiroth would get drunk at one of those and he’s damned tolerate to the stuff. I mean, we’d have all the best stuff there: Wutain whiskey, the best brandy from Costa del Sol, and Kalm Town’s finest home brews. Ask Reno because he can definitely back up my claims. He went to plenty of those parties.

I miss Aeris’ home baked cookies. Have I mentioned that recently? Oh, that girl knew how to make cookies. It makes me drool just thinking about them. Ancients, I wish I could have a couple dozen right now.

Anyways, to the serious stuff. I’ve been meaning to ask this for a while now:

Ed, will you go out with me?

Okay, I'm not dead. I've been avoiding human interaction because I'm still miserable, not to mention, I've been ill. I didn't want to get anyone else sick, so I stayed in my room.

Anyone up to some eggnog? I found some in the fridge and thought "Damn, that better not go to waste." I'll even get some rum to flavor it.

After all, what's Yule without eggnog, right?

With Cloud gone, I've been really quiet. I just didn't want to upset anyone with my utter angst that is totally not me. I guess I just wanted some time alone to deal with things, so anyways.

I'm back. Might decide to ask one of the girls here for a date. Maybe Lucia? I don't know. It might be too early to think of that.

Well, hey, it looks like I didn't get too bad of a costume. -sexy dance- Think Cloud would have a fit if he saw me like this. I know some people would. I mean, I look like a male stripper: tight black pants and white cuffs. Just white cuffs. No shirt. Not too bad, like I said.

~Zax

[ooc; chippendale dancer. How fitting.]

I'm bored.

Maybe I can make dinner for everyone sometime...Yeah, that's a great idea! I'll go find Reno and have him help with cooking, since I'm really not supposed to mess with things in the kitchen. Last time I blew up the microwave just by opening the refrigerator. ^^;

Anyone else want to help out?

Why is everyone so MEAN?! -sniffles- I wish everyone would just die so the anger will go away!

-Zax

[ooc; Oh, gods, I have no clue how to write Angst!Zax. This ought to be fun.]

It may be a bit early to celebrate, but what the hell.

Cloud and I are together!

Which means, Ed, I'm sorry, but I'll have to cancel that date. You're cute and fit the criteria for my ideal guy, but Cloud will always be number one for me.

This calls for alcohol and sex!